This One Has Been Hard For Me

This Day 5 Dare. I haven't done it yet. I'm supposed to ask Kyle which 3 things cause him to be uncomfortable or irritated with me.

First of all, this is a question that is so unusual for us that he would look at me like I've got 4 heads. Second of all, I haven't been able to find the "right" time to ask him. He's been working late, don't want to ask him when he gets home. He's busy in general, don't want to ask him when he doesn't even hear the question. He's irritable, definitely not a good time to ask him. I just can't find the "right" time. THAT is irritating ME!

Then, the past couple days I have not been feeling well. Kyle has not been wanting to spend time with me, except to jump in the sack, which I don't want to do (and haven't done, which is probably part of the reason why he's being a butthead). UGHHHH!! I'm really frustrated right now. And a bit hurt. I would love to just cuddle with him, but that NEVER happens.

Today I didn't wake up until 1pm. TOTALLY unusual for me, but I took some cough syrup with codeine last night and it totally knocked me out. So I got up at one and right away started getting ready to leave since it was my nephews joint birthday party today. At 1:30 Kyle asks me if I want to "do it". No. Can't you see I'm trying to get ready to leave? So I don't see him all day since he refused to go to the party.

After the party, my sister and her husband and kids, my cousin and her daughter and my sisters Mother-in-law go out to eat. I called Kyle before we left the restaurant and asked him if he wanted me to bring him home some dinner. Nice, right? So I get home, all is fine and dandy. He's watching tv and I come in to get on the computer. Just a few minutes ago, I go to give him a kiss and he's like a dead fish. Why can't he just frickin' give me a damn kiss?

F-R-U-S-T-R-A-T-E-D

Day 1: Love is Patient

The Dare:

The first part of this dare is fairly simple. Although love is communicated in a number of ways, our words often reflect the conditions on our heart. For the next day, resolve to demonstrate patience and to say nothing negative to your spouse at all. If the temptation arises, choose not to say anything. It's better to hold your tongue than to say something you'll regret.

The Question:

Did anything happen today to cause anger toward your mate? Were you tempted to think disapproving thoughts and to let them come out in words?

My Thoughts:

I worked all day so we didn't see each other very much. When I got home, I was really tired. I didn't have to cook dinner since Kyle had eaten leftovers so I made cupcakes. He thought I was crazy, but I know he was happy I did because he loves cake.

He's not been feeling well and he slept almost the whole day, which is good. He was watching some dumb action movie so I told him I was going to go downstairs and watch something else but he pulled me onto his lap to cuddle instead.

After awhile he started getting touchy / feely. Fine. Then he started getting gropey. I started to get irritated. I asked him to stop. I just wasn't in the mood to be touched and felt and groped. It went on for awhile and I didn't get angry or mad, but I did get irritated. I didn't say anything mean or hurtful, though.

I'm not good at being patient, which I know why this little dare was put in here. A lot of people are not patient. For the parts of the day that we saw each other, I think, for the most part, I had patience with my Honey.