Monday, February 16, 2009
Day 2: Love is Kind
In addition to saying nothing negative to your spouse again today, do at least one unexpected gesture as an act of kindness. The Question: What discoveries about love did you make today? What specifically did you do in this dare? How did you show kindness?
What discoveries about love did you make today? What specifically did you do in this dare? How did you show kindness?
Today was a bit more difficult than yesterday. I felt like I had to bite my tongue a lot. When he would say something that I would normally give a sarcastic response to, I felt like I couldn't say anything. And now I'm wondering how I can still respond to him without feeling like I'm doing everything for him. He keeps saying that because I'm not working that my "job" is to be his secretary. But even if I had been working, I would still be his "secretary". It's irritating and I feel like because I'm not responding to him, I'm going to be walked all over even more than I felt I was before I started this journey.
As my act of kindness towards him, I filled out all of his paperwork for his doctors appointments today and another that is coming up. I would normally leave it for him to do. Of course, there were things on the paperwork that I couldn't fill out so I did leave that for him, but I filled it all out to the best of my ability without saying anything, even though I really wanted to.
He also asked me if I was going to make dinner and instead of saying no or something else, I told him that it was a high probability and I did. Without complaining about having to feed his face. (I don't like being expected to do things. I'm much more willing when it's my idea. I should probably work on that. lol)
Love is not always easy. Because I love Kyle, I do things for him, even when I don't want to.